Trust Issues

*I wholeheartedly needed this today, yesterday, and most likely tomorrow.*

“Trust doesn’t come easy. It wasn’t easy for Jeremiah (Jeremiah 32 6-17) to publicly buy land already captured buy the enemy. But he trusted God. It wasn’t easy for David to believe that he would become King, even after he was anointed. But he trusted God (1 Samuel 16-31). It wasn’t easy for Moses to believe that he and his people would escape Egypt, even after God spoke to him from a burning bush.  But he trusted God (Exodus 3:1-4:20). It isn’t easy for us to believe that God can fulfill his “impossible” promises either, but we must trust Him. God, who worked in the lives of biblical heroes, will work in our lives, too, if we will let Him. God loves us and sees our situation. Whenever we doubt God’s wisdom or wonder if it is practical to obey Him, we can review what we already know about Him. Such thoughts and prayers will quiet our doubts and calm our fears. God uses his power to accomplish His purposes through His people. God doesn’t give you power to be all you want to be, but He gives you power to be all He wants you to be. The people of Israel had to learn that trusting God meant radically realigning their purposes and desires with His. God gave them “one heart” toward Him (Jeremiah 32:39). We must develop such singleness of heart and action to love God above anything else.”1

Can I be honest? I’m having some trust issues with God lately. I know in my heart He has everything in control (Job 12:10). I know He loves me, and works all things for my good (Romans 8:28). I know He has a plan (Jeremiah 29:11) and I know it may not (probably not) always align with my plan (Isaiah 55:8-9). I know all this. But what I also know is that I have been praying for certain things for years. Things that are Scriptural. Things that would glorify Him. Things that could help so many others see Him as I see Him.
But just how do I see Him? You can’t fully trust someone until you truly know them. Does my lack of trust stem from not truly knowing my Father? Like I said earlier, I know a lot about God, but do I really know Him? Am I so caught up in myself and this world that I lose His perspective? I don’t know how to answer that. Who doesn’t need to spend more time with Him, getting to know Him better? The things I pray for are in accordance with His Word. If they aren’t from Him, then why do these desires weigh so heavily on my heart as if they are? (Psalm 20:4, Psalm 37:4) I pray consistently for His will. (Matthew 7:7, Matthew 21:22, Mark 11:24, John 14:13-14) And if they aren’t His will, then why am I still burdened by them? Why doesn’t He take them from me, as I’ve also pleaded? (Psalm 81:6-7, Matthew 11:28-30, Philippians 4:6-7)

All that I am praying for is for His glory. (1 Chronicles 28:9, Proverbs 16:3, Colossians 3:23)
Am I so far from Him that I don’t deserve His blessings? (Deuteronomy 30:16, Psalm 1:1, Psalm 119:2, Proverbs 16:20, Matthew 5:6, Matthew 25:21)

Again, I don’t have an answer for that. Therefore I will continue to Trust Him, with all my heart. (Proverbs 3:5)
Psalm 62:5-8: "5 Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him.6 He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken.7 My victory and honor come from God alone. He is my refuge, a rock where no enemy can reach me.8 O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.”

I do trust Him; but I need His help in those times of doubt. (Mark 9:24)

1-Tindale Life Application Study Bible, NLT- Jeremiah 32:6-42 footnotes