Love to Serve, Serve to Love

This was a missionary message to me. Let me explain.

I have always been insecure and felt inadequate around most people. Those feelings didn't disappear when I began doing work for the Lord. While I am much more confident than I used to be, I still question and second guess myself frequently. I feel like I have so much to learn yet where Jesus is concerned. I don't have all of the answers. I don't even know all of the questions to ask. I haven't even read the Bible in its entirety- so how am I qualified to teach anyone about God when I don't know all of the facts myself?

I struggled with this when God put it on my heart to write my church newsletter, and again a few years later about starting this blog. (And I won't even begin to tell you my struggles when He told me write young adult novels!) I just don't feel qualified to 'teach' anyone. I still have so many questions, so many uncertainties, so many doubts. One of my biggest fears is that I’ll push someone further from Christ because of my lack of knowledge. I don't want to lose someone when I can't answer their questions. And I fear they'll lose interest if I tell them I need to look it up and get back to them. (You have no idea how many hours I spend looking things up for my writings before I publish them. I don't have that luxury of time in a face to face conversation.)

Therefore, this verse speaks to me that it's okay not to know it all. (And no one really knows it all but God anyway). (Job 21:22, Isaiah 40:13-14, Romans 11:33-34, 1 Corinthians 2:16, 1 John 3:20) But holding myself back from telling others of Him isn't being like Him; which is what we are called to be. What it all boils down to (and by 'all'- I mean quite literally 'all': this life, this world, the people surrounding us and our Walk with Christ) is Love. You see, love is more important than knowledge. (Check your Bible- the Word doesn't tell us to learn all we can; It tells us to love all we can). True wisdom is measured by a person’s character, not by their knowledge. (James 3:13, 17) and what greater character trait is there to have than being a person filled with love? (1 John 4:7-8) The entire Bible is about, exemplifies and commands love. (Matthew 22:37, 39; John 3:16; 1 John 4:9; - the verses are virtually endless) From the beginning, God is Love. (1 John 3:11) His greatest commandment of us is to love. (Matthew 22:37-40) It is through our Love for God, that we are to love others, and we will serve them. Serving others can be done through a multitude of outlets. Obviously it can be an act of service (volunteering at a shelter or food bank). It can be through teaching (Bible studies and Sunday school classes (and blogs)). It can be through counseling (letting someone vent and cry). It can be done with many, and with few. And even, I think, can be done alone. Praying for someone, in your time alone with God is serving. (I personally have no doubt that because others prayed for me- when I wasn't present- has saved and grown me in many ways). (After all, we don't serve for recognition, so doing it without witnesses is a large sacrifice for our pride). (Matthew 6:1-4)

Is it important to know all we can about the Lord? Absolutely. But is it necessary to have all knowledge to serve Him and love others? Absolutely not. (Proverbs 3:1-4). (Acts 20:35) We are on this earth for a reason, and each person has their own specific calling from God. (Jeremiah 29:11, 2 Thessalonians 1:11, 1 Peter 4:10-11) Just because you aren't involved in a big overseas mission to help spread His Word, doesn't mean your mission isn't just as important. If God has placed something on your heart, there's a reason for it; and He sees the need and urgency when we don't. You may not feel like you're the most qualified person to do the job. You may not feel like you're even in the top 90%. But God does. Remember, He doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called. (James 2:5)

His whole Law can be fulfilled by ‘Love’. (Galatians 5:13-14) Our whole reason for existing is to Love, God and others. And what better way to love God, than to love His children? And to show our love for both, is to serve them. (James 2:14-17)

We are Christians, Christ-like. And what better way to be like Christ, than to love those He loves (everyone) and to serve them? If Jesus came to this world to serve, we should follow His lead. (Matthew 10:44-45, Mark 10:45, Philippians 2:1-8) (Ephesians 2:10, Philippians 2:2)

We needn’t worry about how much we know, we should worry about how much love we show. (1 Timothy 3:13) (Hebrews 10:24)

The Greatest Gift...

Christmas is the season for giving—to let others know that you care. It’s the season where generosity and love spread farther than any other time of the year. The purpose of the holiday is love. The purpose behind each gift we buy is to show an appreciation for the person; to let them know that we care and that they are in our heart. It’s about love. The Love that God showed when He sent His Son to be born to us, and eventually die for us. It’s about the love that encompasses us all when we’re thinking about those that we shop and cook for, and the time we spend visiting others.
No matter religious (or nonreligious) beliefs, it seems that almost everyone gives of themselves during this holiday, and typically, in ways that they don’t throughout the other eleven months. And that is what it’s about. What better way to show our Christ to people than to give; time, gifts, love? But let us not forget that He is the reason we do any of this.

What is it about Christmastime? It’s that we allow ourselves to embrace the Christmas Spirit; His Spirit. We give, we share, we do; for this short holiday season, we do what we’re supposed to do all year through: we love as Christ loves. It’s Christmastime that we embody our namesake—Christ. It’s Christmastime that we share the love. It’s Christmastime that we believe.

What if our problem throughout the year is that we don’t really believe that Jesus Is everything He Is?  We doubt, we make excuses, we wander… God’s promises never fail (Hebrews 6:18). God never fails us; we fail Him. We easily celebrate Him at Christmastime, but what if we celebrated Him all year through? It’s not God that disappears when Christmas is over, it’s us—our faith, our trust, our love, our belief. Belief that He still remains. Belief that He still promises. Belief that He still loves.

The greatest gift we could ever receive, we’ve already been given. His Presence is our present. Jesus loves us so much that He gave up His seat in Heaven to guarantee that we will have one. He gave up His throne, to be born a man, to give His entire life to serve others, to die sacrificially for us. There is no greater love. (John 3:16; John 15:13)

Just Keep Swimming

It was one of those days where nothing seemed to go right.  I didn't sleep well (new baby in the house).  I had to get up entirely too early (did I mention a new baby in the house?).  I forgot to set up my coffee pot so when I got up and hit the "go" button, nothing happened.  Three of the four kids in the house wanted to do anything but what needed to be done and I was beginning to question whether I could handle taking in the two extra children God has placed in our home and still keep my cool, much less my sanity.  I felt so far from what I had pictured for my life at this point, and like many parents, I felt so alone.

Fortunately, God never leaves us (Deut. 31:8), and He always knows just what we need (Matthew 6:8).  I sat down the next morning and opened my Bible to Luke chapter 17 and began reading.  In verses 11-19 Luke tells us the story of 10 lepers that were healed by Jesus.  Leprosy was a disease that sentenced a person to a life of solitude and separation.  Those afflicted were forced to leave their home, their family and move outside of the city.  They couldn't walk the streets without announcing their disease so the "healthy" people could retreat from them.  Talk about being alone!

10 of them were gathered together and saw Jesus approaching.  They knew He was capable of healing them, yet rather than approach Him they yelled out to Him, begging for help.  I don't know why Jesus chose to yell back, rather than physically touch them.  He had done it before (Mark 1:40-45), so we know He wasn't afraid of the disease.  Whatever His reason, His response struck me as strange.  He didn't tell them He would heal them.  He didn't give them directions for healing.  He simply sent them to the priests.  According to custom, a priest had to examine a person that had recovered from leprosy and declare them "clean" before they could resume their life.  I wonder what they were thinking. 

"Are you sure He saw us?  Did He realize we have leprosy?  Maybe He doesn't think we are worthy of healing....  maybe He just doesn't want to be bothered with us right now....  why is He sending us away from Him?"  I admit that questions like this run through my head more often than I would like to admit.   I doubt that He is really interested in my problems.  I question if He really wants me or if I am just part of the package deal....

But the lepers, no matter what thoughts ran through their heads, obeyed.  Luke doesn't record them questioning Jesus, only that they went.  That's hard, isn't it?  Obeying Jesus when it just doesn't make sense to us?  We have to completely trust that He knows what He is doing, that His plans truly are what is best for us, that He is in control.  It truly takes faith to follow directions when you can't see where you are going. 

And it wasn't until AFTER they started on the path to the priests that they were healed. Sometimes, we have to just take that step in the dark, not knowing all the details or how it will turn out, and trust that it will work out.  And when it does, when you see God's perfect plan work out for your good (Romans 8:28), make sure you are like the leper that turned back to thank Jesus.  Remember who it is that blesses you with everything and respond with a thankful heart.  After all, doesn't He deserve it?

So I may not know how things are going to turn out for my family., whether the momma of these two children will recover from her addiction and be able to reunite her family, or whether they will remain with us until their adulthood.  What I do know is that God has a plan in this and I chose to trust that He knows better than I do what is best.  So if He never chooses to reveal His plan to me, I am OK with that.  He set me on a path and I am going to walk it, and not lose sight of the One that is truly in control.  Or, in the memorable words of a little blue tang fish, I am going to "just keep swimming". 

Patience in Trouble

The struggle is real.

We all have struggles in life. Whether it’s at work, in our marriage, with the kids, in our Spiritual life… Life can just be overwhelming at times.

I’ve, as of late, been struggling with balance. Balancing being a wife, a friend, an employee, a newly self-published author and a disciple of Christ. And if I’m being honest, I don’t think I’m faring well. I feel like every part of my life is only getting a subpar effort. And I’m exhausted.

What do you do when you feel like a failure and are completely overwhelmed? Remain steadfast in your trust of the Lord (Psalm 119:31). No one is perfect. [Amen!] We all stumble at times. We may have full seasons of stumbling, or we may just have a few moments. It may seem like all we do is stumble—but the Lord holds our hands and keeps us from falling (Psalm 37:23-24). Ground your feet, and keep going (Psalm 24:16a).

Take heart that God’s mercy never ends (Lamentations 3:22-23). We are typically our worst critics. But if God—the Creator, the All-Mighty Judge—forgives us and takes mercy on us, why can’t we? Be patient with yourself, as God is patient with you (Hebrews 10:35-36). Seek His counsel (Number 32:23) to show you how to do/be better. Trust His Word.

For me, I acknowledge the perspective of the ‘real world’ problems: poverty, hunger/starvation, threat of war, natural disasters, etc. These are the things that make me feel insignificant and selfish. But as I watch the news reports today bombarding me with reminders of 9/11 sixteen years ago and hurricane damage, I am grateful for the struggles I have. Yes, there are people that have it much worse than my very blessed life. But, it’s more than that. Our struggles shape us. We are a work in progress (some days, we see more work than progress) (Romans 5:3-5). When I feel like an utter failure at times, I gird my feet and allow Him to fill in where I fail.

Romans 12:12: Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying. [Amen!]

Breathe In, Breathe Out...

Take a deep breath before you read:
You will never be worthy of Jesus’ love. You will never deserve His mercy and grace.
There, now that that’s out in the open, let go of the guilt of never measuring up. Because the beauty of His sacrifice is that you don’t have to. God’s grace is sufficient (2 Corinthians 12:9). God’s grace is omniscient (Psalm 147:5). God’s grace is circumferential (Psalm 34:18). God’s grace has made you worthy (2 Thessalonians 1:11-12). There is nothing you can do to earn it—it is a gift (Ephesians 2:8-9).

Now take a deep breath and accept that you are enough. You were created in the image of God (Genesis 1:27) [Breathe that in for a moment].

You are not a failure because you failed. Nothing you have ever done or will ever do will keep Him from loving you (Romans 8:29). God created you on purpose, for a purpose (Psalm 139:13; Jeremiah 1:5). You don’t surprise Him with who you are. You were intentional.

Carrying the weight of guilt and shame leaves you feeling exposed—naked—on display for the world to see. But you are not to be concerned with what the world sees, you only need to concern yourself with what the Lord sees; and He sees your heart (Luke 16:15). Don’t let the devil mislead you to believe that you can’t have the best of what God has to offer (Genesis 3:1). He is a liar and a manipulator (2 Corinthians 11:14). “Who told you that you were naked?” (Genesis 3:11)

Remember when the disciples were in the boat and a storm raged around them (right after Jesus fed the 5000)? (Mark 6:47-52) They  were “toiling” among the storm. This word translated in Greek is “torment, test, pain, torturous”. How many times have you felt tormented by your shame and guilt? But notice what happened in the midst of the storm: Jesus met them (miraculously by walking on water). But when the disciples saw Him, they were afraid. Even though they’d just witnessed His miracle of feeding 5000, seeing Him walking on water towards them, they cried out in fear. The translation is “to raise a cry from the depth of the throat.” Have you ever been there? Have you ever been so fearful of what Jesus may think of you that you didn’t realize He came out to meet you amidst your storm, too? Notice His response: “Be of good cheer, it is I; be not afraid.” Not only did He comfort them through words, He got into the boat with them.

Sweet friends, let Jesus into your boat and into your heart. Let go of that guilt and shame you’re carrying around. Exhale it all out. Jesus carried it to the Cross, and with His last breath, He let it go (Hebrews 12:2-3). You can, too. Your sins are forgiven (Luke 7:48-49). The Greek translation of forgiven is aphiemi; it is also used for the English word suffer. We are forgiven (aphiemi) because Christ suffered (aphiemi). We are One with Jesus (John 17:21; 1 Corinthians 6:17; Galatians 3:28).
Allow that thought to sink into the depths of your soul. Allow yourself to forgive yourself, just as He has forgiven you. Allow yourself to breathe...
2 Timothy 1:9: “He has saved us and called us to a holy life—not because of anything we have done but because of His own purpose and grace. ” 

Winning the Battle Against the Enemy

Engaging in warfare against the enemy.
“The devil made me do it.” It’s a tale as old as time (see Genesis 3:13). When bad things happen, we quickly blame the devil. We use him as a scapegoat, but in actuality, the bad things are from him. He is in constant battle against God for our souls. Not because he cares for us so much (or at all really) but because he hates God that much. When you have those moments—those days that everything seems to go wrong—can I offer you a bit of insight? Don't take it too personally. Satan isn't after you, per se. He's after God. He knows the love that the Father has for us, and that the only way to hurt our All Mighty God, is to hurt our relationship with Him. And he does that by attacking us in our daily lives. (Ephesians 6:12)

I’m not typically one to jump on the ship of blaming the enemy. Mostly because I don’t want to give him the credit—I don’t want him to feel that important or to think that he’s affected me that much. But unfortunately, yesterday was not one of those times. He managed to deflate my excitement in a quick moment. The conversation went from elation to deflation in less than three seconds. It took all I had not to cry. And as soon as I got alone, that’s exactly what I did: cry. I hate those moments. I hate giving in to his deceit. And that’s what it is: deceit. (see Genesis 3:1- the serpent was the most [cunning, shrewdest, crafty, subtle, skilled in deceit]) He is a liar and a thief. (John 8:44; John 10:10) He seeks to destroy God by destroying us. Don't allow him the satisfaction. 

The enemy will attempt to deceive you, tempt you and accuse you. To help protect yourself from the enemy’s attacks, read more about the Armor of God to prepare yourself for the battle. (Ephesians 6:10-18). Gird your waist with truth: this means to have a true heart, unwavering resolve/allegiance [Side note: the belt was the last piece of armor attached by the Roman soldier—it symbolizes that having a pure heart for God will hold the rest of the armor together]. Put on the breastplate of righteousness: this means integrity, acting and thinking in purity to guard our heart. Shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace: the Word of God is to be our footwear—it will keep you grounded and protect you—it will be your foundation. (Matthew 7:24-25). Take the shield of faith…to quench all the fiery darts: when we are drenched in faith, the shield will stop the devil’s fire from spreading when we get hit with a ‘dart’. [Soldiers would light the arrows on fire before firing them- Roman soldiers would douse their shields in flame retardant material to keep their shields (and themselves) from catching fire]. Take the helmet of salvation: keeping your mind focused on your promised eternity will remind you that you are not (and never will be) alone in this battle (Deuteronomy 31:6). And the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God: [the only offensive piece of the armor] that represents the individual passages (not Bible as a whole). The Bible is full of many different weapons, depending on the need: it is not one weapon, but an arsenal.

 My Pastor summed up the Armor perfectly last Sunday as:
Stand in undivided devotion... Belt of truth
Live righteously against sin... Breastplate of Righteousness
Walk in sureness and boldness... Shoes of Gospel of Peace
Guard every thought and give it to God, before it inflames... Shield of Faith
Know you are His, know every work counts eternally... Helmet of Salvation
Learn your weapons of war with each Word of God... Sword of the Spirit

Staying grounded in God’s Word will help you fight the deception. It will also help you grow in your walk with Him, which will help you overcome his traps of temptation. (Matthew 26:41, James 4:7) Having God’s Word written on our hearts and in our minds will help fend off the accusations (lies). His condemnation is futile when you have accepted Jesus. (2 Corinthians 5:17) The war is raging around us. In order to gain victory with Jesus, we must engage and suit up in our armor. (2 Timothy 2:3-4).